Binary

The Pilot owns many flying toys.

I tried to fly one of them once, and it was during this attempt that the Pilot discovered something about his new-at-the-time wife.

I am hopelessly binary.

I either ran the flying contraption into the ceiling or I could not get it off the ground.

With it me, it's up or down, right or left, night or day.

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Feast or Famine....

Perhaps it was the formula that made Gus sleep all the way through the night fairly early on. He had his upsets throughout much of the afternoon and early evening, but eventually he became a good sleeper.

Cora nurses all night long....

... and for much of the day.

... and during the greater part of an evening.

She is my "all or nothing" girl.

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Broke or "Hard Broke"

The week we came home from the hospital both our central cooling and our dishwasher quit working.

The Pilot took apart the dishwasher. He explained to me what was wrong with it, but I've been averaging about two hours of sleep a night, so my powers of recall are impaired. About twice a week, I now find the Pilot halfway in the dishwasher, which will be in pieces on the kitchen floor. Plates have to be free of all debris before they are placed in the dishwasher.

The landlord was not happy about having to replace the compressor on the cooling unit; however, he would probably be happy to learn that we're having to replace our entire unit in Georgia.

Our stroller broke on our first outing.

It broke again on the day the Pilot tried to fix it.

Now, it's not just broken; it's "hard broke," according to the Pilot.

We cannot buy a stroller until we know where we are going in the spring.

Yes, it is that time of uncertainty again. Decisions can be made but only up to a certain point in time.

We're supposed to find out this month where we are going, but we all know how that goes....

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Trash and Treasure

I must confess to something. The television that best keeps me awake while nursing at three in the morning is of the worst kind.

Here's a glimpse into what my mind is consuming in those early morning hours while Cora feeds and I struggle to stay awake.

Sex and the City 2: My mom and I watched this disaster in those early days, those days when I was pumping and nursing every two hours without end and floating around in a percocet haze. We would watch thirty minutes or so at a time. I'm not sure if this is the only way to watch such an offensive film about Ugly American behavior in the UAE, but I do know that these characters lost their souls a long time ago. The moral of the film seems to be "Kiss your ex-fiance and see what it gets you: A fabulous ring from your husband, that's what!"

Reruns of America's Next Top Model: Tyra. I don't know what else to say.

Rachel Zoe: What an awful mess of self-absorption that show is! See above.

Top Chef: Just Desserts: I admire the art of the pastry, and I've consumed my fair share of desserts, but this show is just lame!

But it hasn't been all bad....

I've been getting reacquainted with my boyfriend Jon Stewart. He's the only person who can get me to watch snippets of the Republican debates.

The Tudors: Yes, it's trash of the historical fiction variety (emphasis on fiction), but it's entertaining and the acting is good.

It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia: I laugh so hard I cry. It sometimes makes nursing difficult.

Somewhere in between is American Horror Story which I've found that I absolutely cannot watch while nursing because it scares the piss out of me.

I promise to myself that I'll watch some TED talks or some News Hour or just shut off the TV and listen to NPR or read some meaningful articles/essays.

But I've yet to do that. I have an entire cycle of ANTM to record!

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0 to 1 Month

Cora is now one month old.

Last night I touched my nose to her nose, and she gave me the biggest smile.

The Pilot had to play the game, too.

He leaned over Cora, touched his nose to hers, and she immediately started crying.

Of course, she was hungry. Again.

She wears the same worried look that Gus had when he was hungry.

We do believe that Cora has a very deep dimple in her right cheek.

One day we will catch that dimple.